Katie Strumpf
"Helping kids with cancer.......a cancer survivor's story"  

Wedding Bells

Congratulations on your special day! This coupon entitles you to 10% of any or all remaining items from your registry.

Thanks, Bed, Bath, and Beyond.

Although I do love my coupons, this served as yet another reminder that my wedding date had come and gone, yet there was no wedding.

As I have written before, the milestone dates (Adam's birthday, anniversaries, the 21st of every month, the date we met, etc., etc.) usually make me anxious, and the anticipation building up to the day is often worse then the actual day.

Suffice to say, the days leading up to what would have been my wedding day were no exception.

I felt anxious, sad, and just out of sorts.

Adam and I had to change our wedding date several times (it was originally supposed to be last summer) because of his treatment. We really wanted him to be healthy and strong for the wedding, and able to enjoy the day.

Then last August, we realized Adam being healthy at our wedding wasn't going to be an option.

So we got married when Adam was in hospice. It was sweet, sad, hopeful, yet very us. It gave new meaning to the vow "in sickness and in health."

I wasn't even offended when Adam threw up right after he said his vows.

I was a newlywed, and less then two weeks later, I was a widow.

I have never been a big wedding person, I like going to weddings, but I think the wedding industry has gotten out of control. Adam and I were planning something simple, classy, and about celebrating our love with family and friends, not about color coordination or centerpieces.

While I was so looking forward to wearing my beautiful dress and walking down the aisle to Adam's smiling face, it was everything beyond that walk that I was most looking forward to.

No, I am not talking about the champagne, cake(s) and dancing, although I was most certainly looking forward to all of those.

It was walking through life with Adam.

So back to the days leading up to my wedding date, which would have been a few weeks ago. Like the other milestones, I tried to do something nice for myself.

I got a mani/pedi with a good friend.

I had a shrimp burrito for lunch.

I fell asleep on a raft in the pool.

I met another good friend for a drink that perfectly matched my mani/pedi. (For those curious, the color was OPI Modern Girl, a fun tangerine color.)

Ok, so maybe I did several nice things for myself.

The day wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be, but it was still hard.

But that doesn't mean I don't plan to use that Bed, Bath, and Beyond coupon.




Posted by Katie Strumpf at 10:02 AM on July 8, 2011 | Comments (0)


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